Saturday, April 18, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Something Amiss
"One of the symptoms of an approaching nervous breakdown is the belief that one's work is terribly important." ~ Bertrand Russell
Something has felt a little amiss to me this morning. Like I forgot something at the house or am forgetting to do something. I looked in my bag, examined my calendar and checked my to-do list. And there it was....between my to-do list and my calendar I noticed it. No deadlines. No must-do or die things at work or at home for today. What?! What is this?! OK - so I have things to do at work (some writing hell) and my laundry needs some sorting and putting away and some dishes need to be done but other than that - I got nada. Holey gamoley!
What is a gal to do? Well I have an amazing plan for today...I am going to take a walk at lunch. I am going to leave at 5. I am going to get home by 6:30. I am going to get my chores done. I am going to make myself some dinner. I am going to take the bunny out to play and watch American Idol. I am going to go to bed when I am still awake and read my book. I am going to live a slow life today with no pressure or worry.
I say again...holey gamoley!!!
Something has felt a little amiss to me this morning. Like I forgot something at the house or am forgetting to do something. I looked in my bag, examined my calendar and checked my to-do list. And there it was....between my to-do list and my calendar I noticed it. No deadlines. No must-do or die things at work or at home for today. What?! What is this?! OK - so I have things to do at work (some writing hell) and my laundry needs some sorting and putting away and some dishes need to be done but other than that - I got nada. Holey gamoley!
What is a gal to do? Well I have an amazing plan for today...I am going to take a walk at lunch. I am going to leave at 5. I am going to get home by 6:30. I am going to get my chores done. I am going to make myself some dinner. I am going to take the bunny out to play and watch American Idol. I am going to go to bed when I am still awake and read my book. I am going to live a slow life today with no pressure or worry.
I say again...holey gamoley!!!
Monday, April 13, 2009
I have an idea....
I always wanted to write a book. I am going to write a book. I am going to write a book for my son.
That is my crazy for today....
That is my crazy for today....
Friday, April 10, 2009
Good Friday
I kind of never understood why it is called 'Good Friday'. I mean, it really sucked for Jesus. That whole crucifixion thing. Not good in any way shape or form. Or maybe it is a reminder to be good. I have to look back and find the origins of the Easter bunny. Pickle asked me today and I got nothin'. Should be an interesting Google. My own little easter bunny, PJ, is hopping around while I am working from home writing some marketing fluff. He is big enough to hop on and off the couch. He is cute! Just have to make sure he does not get into any wires that he might find tasty. Ever see a bunny try to hop on pergo floor? funny the way their back legs slip out. I am so easily amused.
Anymahoo - here is our Fu Lion dressed for the occasion and season. He needs some love on the paint side after the winter, but he truly enjoys being decorated :)
And a picture of Pickle with one of her many pom pom creations. Now I ask you...are those the eyes of a girl who sings Queen in kindergarten? :)
And lastly the kids snuggling with Cooper - the 95lb black lab. oh my Mo - the shirtless wonder. He has caught onto the benefits of being a man early...
And a picture of them with their Godfather Erik. I love this shot - I need to get an 8x10 of this one.
Oh! And we all have bikes now. Can't wait for a trail ride soon! mmm...Happy Spring!
Anymahoo - here is our Fu Lion dressed for the occasion and season. He needs some love on the paint side after the winter, but he truly enjoys being decorated :)
And a picture of Pickle with one of her many pom pom creations. Now I ask you...are those the eyes of a girl who sings Queen in kindergarten? :)
And lastly the kids snuggling with Cooper - the 95lb black lab. oh my Mo - the shirtless wonder. He has caught onto the benefits of being a man early...
And a picture of them with their Godfather Erik. I love this shot - I need to get an 8x10 of this one.
Oh! And we all have bikes now. Can't wait for a trail ride soon! mmm...Happy Spring!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Mommy Moment of Pride
Pickle got sent back to her table from 'rug time' in Kindergarten for leading a round of Queen's 'We will rock you".
*sniff* I am so proud :)
Repeating Dream - Haunted House
" Dreams are illustrations...from the book your soul is writing about you" - Marsha Norman
For the past few weeks I have been having dreams about haunted houses. It is never the same house and different people are in each of the dreams - like last night it was the cast of Battlestar Galactica. (Edward James Olmos is a very nice man, btw and helped me through quite a bit last night). Though not the same house, they have similar characteristics - older manor like houses with multiple levels with large hallways. Mo & Pickle are usually not in the dreams physically - I have a knowing that they are somewhere safe. If the dream goes through a long cycle of me not waking up I usually find myself trying to keep the haunting away from them - like insisting that they not sleep in a certain room. The feeling in the dream is always the same...no one else sees or feels what I see and I am trapped trying to prove it to people. The 'trapped' feeling is like the air in the room having disappeared and I cannot breathe, the feeling of someone watching me. I often find myself looking out a window at people unable to see or hear me, with the feeling of someone behind me.
Good stuff huh?! I have been having this 'dream' consistently now every night now for over a week. Today I remembered to remember it and I did a little Googling. This is what I found on dream interpretation...
Haunted
To dream that you are being haunted, indicates early unpleasant traumas and repressed feelings or memories. You are experiencing fear or guilt about your past activities and thoughts.
Hmmmm.....that makes sense with the type of anxiety I have been feeling lately. But how can I make it go away? Dreams and indicators? There lies the rub. I will have to noodle on this a little more.
In other news...it is Easter this weekend. Yay! Our Fu Lion is decked out for the holiday and spring in general. I will post a picture soon. The kids have new bikes and I love to hear them giggle outside while they play. This weekend will be much Easter bread baking on Saturday and Easter Sunday with Boo Boo's family in Maine hunting eggs and shopping for baby chicks, ducks, geese and turkeys for the farm. Fun stuff!
For the past few weeks I have been having dreams about haunted houses. It is never the same house and different people are in each of the dreams - like last night it was the cast of Battlestar Galactica. (Edward James Olmos is a very nice man, btw and helped me through quite a bit last night). Though not the same house, they have similar characteristics - older manor like houses with multiple levels with large hallways. Mo & Pickle are usually not in the dreams physically - I have a knowing that they are somewhere safe. If the dream goes through a long cycle of me not waking up I usually find myself trying to keep the haunting away from them - like insisting that they not sleep in a certain room. The feeling in the dream is always the same...no one else sees or feels what I see and I am trapped trying to prove it to people. The 'trapped' feeling is like the air in the room having disappeared and I cannot breathe, the feeling of someone watching me. I often find myself looking out a window at people unable to see or hear me, with the feeling of someone behind me.
Good stuff huh?! I have been having this 'dream' consistently now every night now for over a week. Today I remembered to remember it and I did a little Googling. This is what I found on dream interpretation...
Haunted
To dream that you are being haunted, indicates early unpleasant traumas and repressed feelings or memories. You are experiencing fear or guilt about your past activities and thoughts.
Hmmmm.....that makes sense with the type of anxiety I have been feeling lately. But how can I make it go away? Dreams and indicators? There lies the rub. I will have to noodle on this a little more.
In other news...it is Easter this weekend. Yay! Our Fu Lion is decked out for the holiday and spring in general. I will post a picture soon. The kids have new bikes and I love to hear them giggle outside while they play. This weekend will be much Easter bread baking on Saturday and Easter Sunday with Boo Boo's family in Maine hunting eggs and shopping for baby chicks, ducks, geese and turkeys for the farm. Fun stuff!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Resolutions Update
Going into the 2nd quarter of the year it is time for us to review our goals and progress thus far...
1. Simplify. Keep it simple. Don't over plan or over schedule.
check! I have been making a very conscious effort on this and it has helped me a lot. I still feel like I have no time to accomplish things, but I am making better choices.
2. Keep it close to home and heart.
Check check!
3. Get more active! I had a good kick start with this over the summer/fall of '08 - '09 will bring a gym membership and twice a week trips and more biking and hiking with the kids.
OK - so I joined the gym. I have been a couple of times - it's a time thing people. BUT now that the weather is nicer I am walking 15-20 minutes per day at work and bikes are in the shop for tune ups and such.
4. Lose 15-20 lbs. Pretty reasonable I think. This will help my blood pressure, my mood, my overall good looks and well being.
Back off man! It's only April 1! Obviously this one needs work...
5. Focus on work - get fresh with programs and stay positive. And with that keep work at work. Minimize the overflow into my home life.
Check with a capital C! Work feels better - home feels better.
6. Hang the bedrooms blinds.
I am an exhibitionist apparently....maybe this weekend.
7. Organize the basement and a play area in the basement for the kids.
Done. And it will be re-organized in the coming weeks when the yard stuff goes outside.
8. Organize desk and files for neatness/de-clutter factor and also not losing important documents.
Yep. But I feel like it needs more. I need some better storage in this area. I have my eyes peeled for low cost solutions. IKEA road trip perhaps?
9. Fix finances - pay down debts, SAVE, make better money choices
Debts are being paid down, making better money choices but saving? That's funny! Just when I think I can save an unplanned for bill arises. *sigh* Oh well. But I am being more conscious for sure and am very happy to be paying down my debts.
10. Look ahead, not back.
Ya know....this sounds really easy...but it ain't. Though I try, some days are just not as fruitful in this area. But seeing where I have come in the last 5 years, I am doing brilliant work. Sun, exercise and the great outdoors will assist with this too. I think winter effects me a little more than I thought cause when we were in FL I felt amazing all around.
I would like to amend with a #11 that I accomplished this week....a dentist visit. All is good - but after 4 years I had my worries. Boo Boo turned me on to a great dentist and my 6 months check up is Oct 2nd. Look at me go with the dental hygiene. But sssshhh! Don't tell the kids! They are always on schedule...I just blow it off. ssshhh.
So far so good with 2009 I say. How you doin'?
1. Simplify. Keep it simple. Don't over plan or over schedule.
check! I have been making a very conscious effort on this and it has helped me a lot. I still feel like I have no time to accomplish things, but I am making better choices.
2. Keep it close to home and heart.
Check check!
3. Get more active! I had a good kick start with this over the summer/fall of '08 - '09 will bring a gym membership and twice a week trips and more biking and hiking with the kids.
OK - so I joined the gym. I have been a couple of times - it's a time thing people. BUT now that the weather is nicer I am walking 15-20 minutes per day at work and bikes are in the shop for tune ups and such.
4. Lose 15-20 lbs. Pretty reasonable I think. This will help my blood pressure, my mood, my overall good looks and well being.
Back off man! It's only April 1! Obviously this one needs work...
5. Focus on work - get fresh with programs and stay positive. And with that keep work at work. Minimize the overflow into my home life.
Check with a capital C! Work feels better - home feels better.
6. Hang the bedrooms blinds.
I am an exhibitionist apparently....maybe this weekend.
7. Organize the basement and a play area in the basement for the kids.
Done. And it will be re-organized in the coming weeks when the yard stuff goes outside.
8. Organize desk and files for neatness/de-clutter factor and also not losing important documents.
Yep. But I feel like it needs more. I need some better storage in this area. I have my eyes peeled for low cost solutions. IKEA road trip perhaps?
9. Fix finances - pay down debts, SAVE, make better money choices
Debts are being paid down, making better money choices but saving? That's funny! Just when I think I can save an unplanned for bill arises. *sigh* Oh well. But I am being more conscious for sure and am very happy to be paying down my debts.
10. Look ahead, not back.
Ya know....this sounds really easy...but it ain't. Though I try, some days are just not as fruitful in this area. But seeing where I have come in the last 5 years, I am doing brilliant work. Sun, exercise and the great outdoors will assist with this too. I think winter effects me a little more than I thought cause when we were in FL I felt amazing all around.
I would like to amend with a #11 that I accomplished this week....a dentist visit. All is good - but after 4 years I had my worries. Boo Boo turned me on to a great dentist and my 6 months check up is Oct 2nd. Look at me go with the dental hygiene. But sssshhh! Don't tell the kids! They are always on schedule...I just blow it off. ssshhh.
So far so good with 2009 I say. How you doin'?
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